The first of the half dozen mixed tulips planted last fall has bloomed. The weather has been on the chilly side, slowing down the warmth for some flowers, but not for the tree budding pollen. Big masses of left to grow naturally forsythia can be seen going south Route 7 into Middlebury, Vermont. Daffodils are also flowering.
The pandemic is winding down in some ways and revving up in others. Like grief's stages, a pandemic has stages that are similar. It helps to read articles online to understand, feel you are not alone, and as support for the fortitude you have.
Whenever I encounter a solid stone wall of depression, I mull through possible causes. Those activation points can be large and obvious to small and blurry. But, they are always there. Going through some of my parent's kitch and whatnots recently impacts me greater than I realized/small and blurry. Once I figured that out, I began recovery with dedicated effort to improve my diet, engage in positive task accomplishment, sleeping better, taking care to not be hard on myself, and trying to decrease isolation. Imagine dragging yourself to watch a favorite television show or forcing youself to have salmon with dill when all you feel like is snacking on cheese puffs while staring out the window. I can compromise by muted the television show, not buying cheese puffs, jotting down my thoughts more than I stare into space, and, buying frozen salmon I put in the freezer door where it slides through, falls on the floor to nag me away from junk food. Not every tactic works. Given earnest effort, some of them will help lift me out of the lowest parts of depression.
Another help tactic: Humor on purpose. Watching cute overload animal videos like the mother bear crossing the road with 4 cubs, 8 puppies fitting in a small tub or the British swan knocking on people's door. A magnificent Awww can clear the spirit as well as a crisp fresh air walk with a love one or shoe shopping by yourself. Strange as it sounds, political cartoons, in moderation, can also help a person have a good stress releasing laugh.
What do you depend on to make you laugh?